well yom kippur is only 3 days away, and its time for contemplation on our actions this past year. this is a tough subject. did i treat others with loving kindess and as i want to be treated?? definately not always!! im guilty of being selfish, quick to anger, and unforgiving. i know, i can be a real cold hearted bitch!! i hate it, i want to be perfect 8 days a week and go above and beyond every expectation and excel at all my challenges.
practice makes perfect. WHAT BULLSHIT. there is no such thing as perfect. but you know what?? its the mistakes and shortcomings of everything in this life that makes us beautiful souls.
yom kippur.....day of atonement. you can never ask god for forgiveness if you have wronged another person, you must GO to the wronged and ask for their forgiveness. by wronging your fellow man, you have wronged god.
i can only ask adonai to help me forgive myself. forgive yourself forgive yourself forgive yourself. have compassion on yourself!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like this is impossible. we are so hard on ourselves, why is it so difficult to let go of our mistakes?? it is so easy to fall into patterns of negative self talk, it takes work to be able to find your peace of mind. to try to heal takes courage.
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